He is Risen!
What a way to wake up, thinking about my Lord’s resurrection day. I read through all 4 Gospel accounts of the Resurrection and I wanted to share some of my ponderings as I like to call them. Not the usual stuff you read or hear about on Easter Sunday but my weird thought process. When I read through the Bible, I sometimes try to picture myself in the story. Like what would I do if Jesus just looked me in the eye and said that? Would I have responded to a situation a certain way? What if I was there at that place, how would I act? What if I saw Jesus healing a leper? What if I was sitting on the hillside that day listening to Jesus and got passed some bread and fish? Is it just me or do you ever think like that too? I know it’s kind of weird, but hey, it’s my blog and I can be weird if I want to!
What I really was thinking about as I read this morning was Mary Magdalene. So much had been incorrectly portrayed about this woman. The only thing the Bible says about her was that Jesus drove 7 demons out of her. One of the many misconceptions about her was that she was a prostitute. Nowhere does it say that although I can understand that being controlled by 7 demons could most certainly cause her to be one. I am sure she had many issues and did some pretty crazy things under their control. My point is not to argue about what she was or wasn’t, my point is that I am so grateful that Jesus loves the messed up Mary’s of the world! I am one! Imagine living a life full of shame, despair, hopelessness, being an outcast and who knows what else having 7 demons in you entails but then one day… one day you are walking along and someone calls your name, maybe he even touched her hand, I don’t know, I can only imagine. She looks up with her hair all wild around her face and filthy and He looks her in the eye and casts out the demons from her. Can you imagine what she felt at that instant? I compare it to the day I cried out to God to come and save me while I was lying down on my face on the floor. I couldn’t go on anymore. I couldn’t continue to drink myself to death. He touched me that day, just as I imagined He touched Mary and He said, come child, you are forgiven. I have been waiting for you. I have loved you with an everlasting love. I know the plans I have for you. My precious, precious princess. Wowee!
I know I am rambling but I just love my Lord and I know Mary did too. To think that Jesus could have appeared to anyone but out of all the people in the world, He chose Mary. Chose her! Not Peter or John or James but her. Boggles the mind. Jesus has such a special place in His heart for the Mary’s of the world. I like to think that anyways. Some days I just can’t imagine where my life would have ended up if He didn’t come when I cried out to Him 6 & 1/2 years ago. I probably wouldn’t be alive right now. I will never know and I am so grateful that I did.
The Dreaded “F” Word- The Flu
What started with a few aches and chills last Friday night turned into the flu. I can’t believe an entire week has gone by and I only have vague memories of the latter part of it. I developed a high fever that lasted 4 days and finally had the strength to stick myself in a cool bath which ended up breaking the fever. I don’t recommend doing that to yourself especially if you haven’t eaten in 4 days and can’t even remember your name. I thought for sure I would faint and end up drowning myself and my only thought was, “oh my gosh, look at my legs! Note to self, shave legs in winter too!” The one positive thing about being so sick is the forced weight loss. Between not being able to eat and coughing all day and night, I think my abs are getting tight again.
Well, I feel like I have so much to write but am still very weak and exhausted. My head feels like it’s going to explode from all the coughing and it hurts to think so I will take a nap now. That’s another good thing about being sick, you get to take naps and eat cool stuff like strawberry jello and applesauce and drink blue gatorade.
The Last Few Weeks
I have been too busy to write which is not a good thing! I started my new job and absolutely love it! At my last job, my main function was administrative and in my new one, I get to talk to people and help them all day. How incredibly fun and cool is that?
Several people in my office were really sick last night and I caught whatever they had. Friday night I came home and got the chills and my body felt really sore. I spent yesterday on the couch and will today too. It’s in my chest which is a horrible thing for me since I have allergic asthma. I am praying that it won’t go to my lungs and I won’t need to go to a doctor because I won’t have insurance for another month.
I need to get back to writing about my devotions because the Lord has been doing amazing things in my life. The last few months have been one of the most trying times in my life but I am so grateful that I have the Lord and good friends to get me through it.
Where have I been??
It’s so funny how time whizzes by. Today was my first day at my new job and it was exciting. I used to work at the same company 4 years ago so it was cool to feel like I was back home and see so many old friends. I forgot what’s it like to work in the professional field and I felt like a little girl in a grown up suit! Everyone there looks so polished and I feel so frumpy! I am not too concerned with my hair and make up and accessories but it seemed like everyone was dressed so perfectly. I am going to a conference in Boca Raton in April (I know, don’t pity me!) and I found out that there will be a very formal awards banquet and dinner our last night there. When I asked what type of clothes I should bring I was told I needed a fancy dress like a cocktail dress. Oh mylanta! My first thought was “I gotta wear pantyhose???” I hate pantyhose like I hate lipstick! I don’t even own any! The things I have to endure! It will actually be fun to get all dressed up. I will be meeting lots of people and networking the whole time there. How fun!
